My dear sister in the Lord,
You don't need to compare to any one nor look up to any one. We only need to turn our eyes to Jesus. Look at what good job God had prepared for us to do and use all of our might, mind and heart to complete the job. Thus, we may consider we had a good day each night before we go to sleep. Don't worry about the things that we did not have resource to finish of that day because God is already there Tomorrow for us. He will make things work well together for those who loves Him.
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appledai
you said very well.thank you
發表於 14-3-14 17:52
I thank you so much indeed. as well as other sisters from baby kingdom. I do get great help from you. You do so much things and still type a lot here. I can not imagine how many hours you sleep a day. Compared with you, I am tiny.
I was lazy and always wanted easy job. Taking care of baby is time consuming and sometimes makes me mad. my mother-in-law could feed my daughter 1.5 hours for a meal. I avoided to do that, would rather to do housework or other work. Now my daughter is difficult and attached to grandma. I made myself difficult.
from last saturday, I almost slept around 5 hours a day. but I believe hardest time will be past very soon. I feel that I started to enjoy parenting when I spent more time with my daughter. I did not enjoy it. and even I did not really enjoy my life which God gave me. God is fair. There is no easy job. He will finally reward us for what we have done.
I did lots of wrong doings when I was young. I am really worth to be dead. Look at others' faith in Him including you. My faith grows too. May God guide me to right way to go.
I can imagine your situation. Indeed, it is tough. Take it one day at a time. Steam Eggs is nutrition and health way to cook food. It is a lot better then eating food from any restaurant. Your daughter get to stay home and stuck with her Mom is also good too. You and her will bond to each other very tied. Many widow brings up one son and the son turned out to be a 孝順仔。So are you, will bring up a 孝順女. Don't be discouraged. This difficulty days will be passed one day. When I was studying in University in America, I have seen and heard many cases like you. We were all foreign students here. We have no parents' help, no in-laws' help, no sibling's help, no relative's help. Usually, University area does not have many Chinese families. For the one who stay in town usually have her own busy life to struggle. So it is so hard for them to provide good, consistent, reliable, and daily resource of helping. I heard a story from my friend. She was talking about her friend. Her friend need to shuffle snow in front of her driveway in order for her to drive her car and go to school when she was in her 9th month of pregnancy. After the baby was born, no 坐月婆,no Chinese food to buy that was good for 坐月。she need to do most of the housework.
One friend of mine was in a little bit better situation, sisters in Christ took turn to deliver food to her home so she did not have to cook.
Even I had my parents live with me for the first 2 girls, they are not reliable at all. When my husband, my children and I need them the most, they insist to go back to Hong Kong for 6 months every year so that they can join all the family and friends reunion activities. They insisted that they could not wait and I needed borrow money from friends to paid for their trip. That was during the time that my financial situation was not doing good at all. When they came back, they complained every thing about my husband with a long face and dark mood.
I was glad those days are all in the past now. This situation became better day by day since my husband took a big risk to buy a separate living space for my parents to live by themselves. I alone continue financially 100% provide their living. This was happened when my third daughter was just 10 days old. I brought my b a b y with me to sign the closing documents and breast fed her right there in the lawyer's office.
My mom was so mad about me to move her and Dad out. She bursted into my b a b y room when I was breastfeed my b a b y.
She yelled at me: 你話你跟你老公食到乜野?跟他去食屎啦!
Hearing what my Mom said, tear was filling up my eyes pretty quick. My tears dropped on my b a b y's face. My thought was: 媽媽!我情願跟我老公無坐月的好野食,要食屎,我都吾情願與你同住,見你一日對住我老公面黑,這樣不滿,那樣投訴,家日不寧。到處同人講電話呻到我老公形像比實際差到離天百丈遠。
However, I bite my won tongue and did not say any of my thoughts out.
The whole day with my daughter. my little always said she wanted to go out to play. I have many things to do and have to stay at home. Even I did not make lunch. I only steamed water egg for her lunch. cried a bit.
She always asked me to play with her. I felt messy and occupied without mother-in-law's help. I did not have much own time. But I get in other side. After made her sleep at night. looked at her lovely face. I felt that I loved her so much. I started to know I paid and I got.
Thank you for your prayer support. I do not have many friends in HK. and not close with in-laws. I am not capable. I have part time job, study, assignments, taking care of my daughter, housework... now have to learn to do things by myself with tears. my daughter has bad tempter. I admit I do not have good tempter either. 99 thinks my bb is good because her mommy is not good.
Today my in-laws moved out, I looked at your post and cried in front of my daughter. She asked me, "mommy, what are you doing?", I said, "mom is not happy. do no make mommy mad. in the future, we need be independent."
I know your guys are doing great. your daughters are compliant. I hope I can be a good mom but I know I have a long way to go. I will pray to God everyday as I need His help to teach my one in godly way.
May God give you wisdom, patience, strength to take care your daughter. He will provide what you need. It may not be what you think you need. I always want more than I need.
I always want to take care of my children, teaching them, doing housework, cooking, grocery shopping, all those full time house wife tasks and don't need to earn money to feed mouths. I think I can enjoy such simple life in this way. Apparently, this is not what God think I need. He put my husband in charge of the household. My husband even said to me that I am not good at manage and doing household work.
My five years old daughter, the youngest one, is the first one grow up without grand parents live in the household.
My husband and I never argue in front of our children not like my parents. We never being upset with each other in front of our children not like my parents. I observed that my youngest one have a better self-control of her temper than the oldest one. I don't know if these 2 facts are related to each other or not.
i am going to live separately with my in-laws after almost 5years living together . i am not good at taking care of young children,cooking,housework...my daughter is very attached to grandma. God, I pray that i can have energy and wisdom to handle all the things. please help me.
At lunch time, 我和子女在谈吐间有个笑话。
I said: 温柔is like me when I was little. I was a princes brag.
大女 惠慈 said: And now Mom, you are queen of interrupter. You have just interrupted me......
When I heard her comment, I was: +
This daughter get her Dad's humor.
Her Dad explained to her: Mom did not interrupt you because....
Anyway, this Morning, we were talking about Chinese social culture.
My husband said: Chinese interact in this way..... Is that true?
I said: I don't know because I am a social______
My husband complete my sentence: idiot !
I laugh hard. Yeah...:;pppp:
I think our children laugh too.
My husband said: You ask for it. (It means that it is hard for him not to give me a kick.)